Sunday, June 12, 2011

D day

So today was D day at my house. My kids left for summer vacation and I am miserable. My husband is driving them out there. So that leaves me myself ...well with the wonder dogs and I am just sad.

I miss the sounds of bickering, the laughing, the chatter. I miss the sounds of people who love me and whom I love more than anything.

I hate being alone. With the quiet thinking ...thinking of things I cant answer. Like how did I get here...why cant I be with them? Why do I have to work at job I hate when I should clearly be with my kids.

Sigh. I am hoping the voices shut off and I find a way to tame them. To find my peace and work on myself I dont have to work on anyone else for a while.

Off to read the paper and look at the sale flyers.


Thursday, June 9, 2011


So I love blogs ... I love the concept of them and I love to read them. But I have trouble doing it. I think that not knitting as much and working so much has really affected me and my ability to do things.

So I am going to really try and have two ideas in mind. My kiddos are taking off to their grandparents house for the Summer. I have already gone through the guilt of they are leaving me syndrome. What I would love to do it take control back over my life and myself. Find myself if you will.

So the major areas will be my house and myself.

I am going to post weekly but I would love to to daily posts. I am going to weigh in, and then blog about my diet, my routine and my progress. I need to find myself again and part of that is shedding my weight.

I need to learn who I am and stop hiding. I am okay with me but I know I can be better.

Who is with me?